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[19 Apr 2005|03:28pm] |
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it seems like i only update my journal bi-monthly doesnt it?? i never get on here anmore becasue of my space. it is so much funner and it helps you meet people all around the country and find out what other people are like, you know?? On livejournal i only have like 4 friedns and thats it, but on myspace i have so many more, and i got back in touch with my old friends in oregon.
I am once again single. i had a boyfriend, yes everyone Anthony is bi-sexual everyone go crazy!!!!! yeah, it was cool but it was more physical that mental and i knew it wasnt going to work. Robert was very emotionally distressed all the time and i am too much of an asshole to be around someone who gets sad if you call them stupid just joking around, you know?? i was talking to two people (robert and jasmine) on different phones and they sarted a name-calling game. "you are ugly!" frm robert, then "im not that ugly if you are jealous of me" from jasmine. stuff like that back and fourth, then jasime said "Anthony is going to be my best friend and he is never going to talk to you or tara ever again"(but in a joking voice) and robert got all sad and we didnt talk for the rest of the weekend and then on monday we broke up. anyways ttyl yall
ME-FUCKIN-TALLICA
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| i dont kow!!!!!!!! |
[08 Feb 2005|12:07pm] |
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i dont really have naything to write right now, lol. i am just really bored and feel like typing. Oh, soemthig interesting that i heard from tara. Beck and ohem and tara were watching the video of me and becky and ohem was really sad. tara told me the reason wy was becasue becky had told him that she never really wanted to make out wiht me, yet when he saw the video, she was more into the making out than i was. So when he saw her on the video she was trying to cover his eyes and his ears so that he coldnt hear or see what was happening, but tara restrained becky and ohem saw that she was full of shit. what makes me mad about this was that she was denying any feelings that she had for me. When we ade out at venice in front of him, it was her idea to make him jealous, and she told him that she never wanted to and that she never really liked me. Well, now that he knows that she is full of shit maybe he will be smart and leave her, but most likely not.... damn freshman.
i have gone without smoking for about 6 days now and i am starting to freak out, you know. i want it so bad, but i want to quit soon. I am spending way too much money on that stuff when i could be going to driver's ed. or buying a car. but anyways, thats all for right now.
Wait!!! i asked out ingrids sister sayng these exact words "Quieres ser mi novia?" i was trying to make it better, you know, asking her in spanish. But she said that her mom said said she was tooyoung to have a b/f. this was my first rejection ever and i was so confident that she was going to say yes, but i got shot down. ok now that is all for right now
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| i dont know |
[16 Dec 2004|01:08pm] |
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i am so sick of life. i think when i die i want to come back as a hipopotomus, random thought. i guuess i am not over becky. she asked me why i hate oem and i told her that its becasue he has something that i dont tat atracts her to him over me and it pisses me off. i hate this shit. i cant wait to go to Oregon for the christmas break. i bought a BC RICH WARLOCK guitar from my friedn Oscar for only 30 bucks and a nickle. it is really ice accept that the amp plug isnt there, oh well...... i keep thinking of beck and olivia. olivia is having problems or something cuz i saw her today, waved and said hello and she acted like she didnt even see me. it made me feel like i did soemthing bad and shes mad at me, but i have no idea wat that could have been. i am sick of girls right now. i think i will take alicia's advice and not date for at least a month or two, but if a girl that i really like asks me out then i will probably say yes. but unless that happens then no. i really need to concentrate on my work or i will screw myself and not graduate. i think i am going to move to Canada after i graduate, that will be cool.
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| say cheese and die |
[06 Dec 2004|12:42pm] |
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Long story short, i got over lindsay, went out with becky who was one of the coolest people ever. the problem was that she still liked her ex-b/f who, i should add, dumped her for another GUY!!!!! so his b/f broke up with him and she broke up with me and now they are back together. if he gets caught skipping and has to come here, ill beat the shit out of him. so now they are like doing it in bowling alleys and shit like that. taras b-day was saturday and they, becky ohem and tara, wanted me to come and bcky was like "i dont want to make you jealous or anything" and then they start making out on a couch and start dry humping and shit. so yeah i am in my pissed off mood tward her. so yeah fuck her. now i am trying to get with ingrid's sister hehehe..... by the way FUCK BECKY AND LINDSAY!!!!
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| ideocy |
[22 Oct 2004|12:38pm] |
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Oh my god. why do i like her man. she cant even give me a proper answer to wy she dumped me. i talked to her yesterday and she wont tell me why she left the message and didnt wait for me to call back. i was fucking at work man i couldnt answer the god damn fucking phone!!!! i hate her man. i figured that she would at least have a reasonable answer but she fucking didnt and now im pissed. nothing good ever fucking lasts for me. i will get something that i love with all my power and God fucking takes it away like a dick head man i hate him/her/it. whatever god is, god needs to choke on a cock!! i realize that im cussing up a storm, but its the only way i can express my anger properly. i think i seriously love lindsay, i didnt care when she tried to make me jealous, i didnt care or listen when my friends would say, "just beak up with her man" because i believed that we could make it work. but i guess she didnt feel the way about me that i feel about her, which sucks major ass. anyways, i cant think of anything else to complain about so l8er alig8ors
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| big rizzle up in hizzle |
[19 Oct 2004|10:18pm] |
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well i am ina state of depression now...... i have gained ten lbs in the past 2-3 weeks even with PE. i have changed my mind about my relationship with lindsay. my life feels empty without hher in it. i feel so empty that i am never full. i am on a perminant high without the floating feeling, just really hungry and i laugh at everything lol. i miss her more than............... i dont know right now but it equals a lot. ok i am being told to go to sleep right now so later
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| not a good day |
[08 Oct 2004|12:07pm] |
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Today is going to be very hard. i am going to break up with Lindsay, whom i ave been dating for 5.5 months. It feels like i am the only one trying to make the long distance thing work. I call her all the time and when she says shes going to call me she is suddenly "busy." I am busy all day every day and i still find a time to call her just to see whats up. i would be at work on my break and i would not eat to call her. I am just fed up with her lack of effort to make this work. She wont ask her mom if i can coe out to see her, she wont ask her dad if he'll drive her over here, it is just really annoying. i really feel like i love her but it is fucking with both of our heads. we havent seen eachother for almost 2 months, which amazes me, and my head is just really fucked up right now. going out with someone that you cant even see and who isnt ptting in an effot so that we can see eachother just seems like a waste of time. i am sick of not being able to see her and that she isnt doing anything to try and make it work. i care more about her than anyone else but this just isnt working.
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| poop on a stick |
[16 Aug 2004|12:54pm] |
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yeah i got my new bass and it plays hella good. sorry i haventt posted in months but i am back for about 45 minutes lol. c yall l8er. evil red
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| Plans for summer |
[28 May 2004|09:38am] |
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I know what i am going to do to get around my dad's punishment. This summer after i turn 17 i am going to buy me a used bass and a new amp. I will then just keep the bass amp at ED's house and the bass at Bruno's or behind my bookshelf. either way my father will never know and then our band will be able to get out songs ready and then we can record them on a tape and then we can send it to someone and the we will be famous. At least, i hope it goes that way. but i am definately going to buy a new used bass. i have to take PE this summer and my g/f is going to be in the class so that will probably be kind of distracting. i am going to try and work nearly full time this summer so that i can get enough money to buy a car, but first i need my liscense. yup.... me and Lindsay have already lasted longer than me and jade. i knew that me and jade were going to have problems but i tried to make it work. i found out that she was going to break up with me b/c she thought i was cheating on her with Lindsay. but i did end up going out with her right after me and jade broke up. like i broke up with jade and then about 5-10 minutes later i was with Lindsay lol. but me and Lindsay have really good chemistry together. yeup
peace out
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| i am dead |
[20 Apr 2004|11:40pm] |
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this weekend was terrible. i had my amp on while my dad was gone and it was on really low so like, you could barely hear it. and my dad got home and started saying how i have no respect or consideration for anything and shhhit like that. so bruno's stupid camera will be payed for soon becasue my dad is selling my sterio, my electric, my amp, my acoustic, and making me buy the camera with that money. the thing that makes this so horrible is the fact that my life rvolves around school, homework, and guitar. he took away my playstation, which almost took me over the edge and i was never really happy. then i started playing guitar and my mom noticed that i was actually happy and i was nice to talk to and i was just all around nice. no what the fuck am i going to do? i thought about getting a razor blade from the kitchen and..... you know. but i didnt. so i slammed my door and now i cant have a door for my room and he thinks that he can take even more from me. what he doesnt know is that all i have left in my life is about 1/8 of my soul left so no matter what he does the only thing that he could take away that would destroy me, would be to take away my friends, that is all. so thank satan for my friends (i am no longer thanking god)
peace out
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| spring break |
[12 Apr 2004|09:44am] |
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wow, spring break was pretty cool. i had band practice for 3 days which was cool cuz we wrote a soong called bullshit. we performed for our singer/guitarists family and recorded it, they said we did really well so yeah!! then one day my dad wouldnt let me go to practice so me and bruno sat around my house for almost 8 hours watching movies, it rocked. then on friday me and eduardo went to six flags and we waited for aboout 5 hours total in line and we were there from 2:30-10:00. we went on de javu, the viper, goliath, and psyclone. on psyclone the bar was loose on my waist and the ride is really bumpy so the bar smashed my balls about 15 times, it sucked really bad. Jade wants me back and we still hang out and stuff but i dont think i want to go out with her again, so we are "friends with benefits" yup laterz
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| happy happy happy, every bodys happy |
[30 Mar 2004|11:37pm] |
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Dude i saw Starsky and Hutch on Saturday! that movie is the shiznat (for shizle my nizle). It was funny as hell and Ben Stiller is one of the funniest people of all time. but of course, you cant have too much good in your life, especially when you are me. I woke up on Sunday and was having a good ol' time chilling in my room typing on my NEW computer and the phone rings. it is my woman Jade and the first thing she says after "Is anthony there?" is..."i have some bad news....." so right away i knew what she was ging to say and im sure if youre reading this you know too. she broke up with me for another person which is bull shit and yeah, it was messed up. But i got her back, i made fun of simple plan (for some reason she likes them) for like 20 minutes and it was totally funny. so yeah, "im single again! Oh Behave!" but yeah, not even 2 weeks, WTF is wrong with her?? i dont really care but it was a big surprise, so you could say that i care but im not like crying and only thinking of her or whatever. yup. iight peace out to my homies. later
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| down with the sickness |
[18 Mar 2004|08:20am] |
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I am so happyÜ!!! i didnt think that i was going to feel better by today but i do. I am leaving for sacramento in the morning for a ju jitsu convention(yes i take ju jitsu) and i didnt think that i was going to be able to go. i am still a little sick but its all good. bruno came to my house yesterday and my dad cut his hair hehehe. i helped him with algebra 2 and we played guitar for a while, it was cool. homework sucked yesterday i was up until like 11:00 doing my homework. i still have twenty questions for mr. steiner that i have to do but its cool. hopefully my dad will let me go to the movies with my woman, b/c im still grounded and im not sure if he'll let me, damn crippled people lol. yeah thats all that i want to talk about.
-peace out
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| awsomeness (i like that word) |
[16 Mar 2004|08:48am] |
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I am getting a lot better at my bass. i can play arials by System of a Down! for that past few days i have been avoiding my dad so that i dont kill him, it has actually been working. last night i was in my room for about 80 percent of the day doing homework and then playing my bass. another awesome thing is that my friend Mina works at best buy and he is going to talk to his manager and hopefully i will bet a job soon!! them i can pay for brunos camera, buy new bass strings, and finally be able to go to band practice at our new location.:-Þ. boo-yah grandma.
i have a stuffy nose and i havent been able to sleep for the past three nights, i think im dying of a lack of social interaction. i NEEEEEEEEDDD a job!!! @@@@@:-) (its either Marge from Simpsons or Jerald from Hey Arnold)
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| i hate everything |
[10 Mar 2004|08:47am] |
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i am mad at all things right now. mostly my father. my dad had tto break his stupid fucking foot and now he is all pissed off. every night for the past like week he has given me a fucking lecture that usually lasts for at least an hour. at the end of it i go into my room and turn my sterio up really loud and listen to "Hold On". pretty much everything in that song relates to how i feel.
Sometimes i wish that my dad was dead. for at least a month now i have been thinking about running away. i asked bruno if his dad would let me live with them if i ran away. he said that most likely not becasue he would be woried about the responsibilty of taking me in without my dad's permission. so i guess if i dont find a person, i will have to stay with my dad. i was thinking about emacipating my self but then i would be all by myself and i dont think that my mom would let me stay with her becasue i already screwed up when i used to live with her. yeah, im sick of typing now......
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